unpredictable journal

27 February 2007

S&W sucks, and school was definitely bored when I had already finished up all revision paper given by Ms Choo. She seems kinda hestitating to give me more, hmm... that ain't a bad thing cuz I can do my 'correction' for those I committed lots of mistake. Everything seems good so far. And something worth cheering about is that I finally get my poly courses choose and so one thing less to get worried about. But kinda sad is that I actually gave up marine engineering and maritime transportation management as most tell me that it really isn't suitable for me. So end up I choose Business Admin, which is I find it stupid to do diploma in admin. But I never know eh?

I'm exhausted but I don't feel like going bed to sleep cuz is messed up with all my revision paper, argh... have got to tidy up. ='( Won't be online due to personal reason as well as exam round the corner. So take kaiire friends.

I hope I'll luv myself more

00:28

25 February 2007

Went to jie jie house to bai nian but bro-in-law went out to fetch Darren over. So play with Pearlyn and she said that she hungry and she want to eat burger, brought her out to buy lunch. Came over seek advise from Darren and he actually asked me to take up banking and finance though it's gonna be tough for the first few years in the career line but once i've got a few clients, everything will be stablised. He said lots of advantages of BFS haha.. maybe is because he has got great intrest in that line bahs. And he also advice me on Tourism and Resort Management cuz is a very demanding courses. Maritime Transportation Management wise, there's nothing much to learn but is a very stablise career. So I think I'll take up these three courses.

I hope I'll luv myself more

16:45

24 February 2007

During Friday Audit lesson, I asked Sim's why sometimes she asked us to take revision paper for kakis why sometimes she said "Don't care, let them zap themselves". I finally understood why, so I've mistaken her all along eh? Anyway, Doreen is such a pervetic and sick, she went to get her belly button pierced! That's so so so unbelivable! *Scream - Argh... madness, I wanna one too. I swear I'm gonna get it pierced asap! Lets wait and see...

Dad discharged this afternoon, and those sickening NUH under training doctors are so damn useless. I asked em whats wrong with him they actually replied me with "We're curious whats wrong with him too" Last few times hospitalized because of high blood and now they said that is anaemia thats why he feels giddy most of the time. Whatever it's, I've too much things to be worrying about. And goodness sake, he has got a week of medical leave. Been to Helen's Aunt house to 've cny celebration with her friends. Was a great day that I've enjoyed! Lil' cousin wanna gave us a treat to restaurant on granny's 70th birthday, anyone any good recommendation of restaurant that offers reasonable and fingers licking dishes?

Think most probably won't be blogging for a week or so, depending on how fast things get settled down.

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:33

22 February 2007

How nice it's gonna be if mom gonna be at home and prepare lunch for me just like today. She was busying in the kitchen before I wake up till I finished school, she must be exhausted. Frankly speaking don't really feel like going school this afternoon but thought that Valencia kakis might be alone, that's gonna be poor thing so I went. Was so surprised to see CH in school as she told me that she'd be back only tomorrow. =) But not that bad as today's lesson she went through some note which I find it helpful for my revision. Finally I managed to recap how to prepare a Bank Rec' Statement and doing my Aging Analysis without mistakes. But I always miss out the conclusion ='(

After hearing what happened to CH and Mr Bong, I'm glad that this thing doesn't happens to us. As day pass by, I'll not ask for anything more and it's good enough to sms/call once in awhile. I've said before, no matter how much I miss you I'll never take the initiative to sms you. I'll just leave everything to you, to decide if we gonna be friend for life.

Girl, I do not know what are the other reasons that result you to dislike her so much. But the first reason said out from your mouth gave me a kind of feeling that your yi xin bing tai zhong. I'm not saying that she's cunning, I'm not saying that you're gullible and definitely I'm not asking you to be a bad person. You've got to see who's worth your effort to help, if they do appreciate what you've done for them. It's not that I self praising myself, but come on, think of it. If our group without me, you think you're motivated to study hard? To me your learning pace is average whereas for me is slow. But I always said hard work paid off, so I'm so determined to put in lots of efforts in doing revision at home and I always done well in exam unless I make stupid careless mistakes. To me, you seems so reluntant to do your revision even till now. [I'm sorry if my judgement is wrong] We left with 20+ days for our final exam, if you really so wish to go poly, then starts your revision now. You must score a 4 pointer this time in order to have higher chances to get into poly. So way to go girl, hope we'd get into poly. =D

Did Sim's mentioned that we've got to submit our poly application form tomorrow? Hell, I haven't decide what courses to take. Hmm, should I really put marine engineering? And should I take up accountancy?

I hope I'll luv myself more

15:58

21 February 2007

M back yesterday night at around 11pm+. First stop was the stall outside our kampong, the Otah and the wanton noodle. The prawn otah was so damn super nice that we wouldn't be missing out everyday! And the first night we went to catch Protege a great movie that everyone should watch. Second day head up to granny house. Jun Wei was so cute, would you believe that he can drinks beer when he's only 2years old? =) Shortly we return back to kampong as Pearlyn is crying for milk. =( At night by right want to catch ghost rider but those tortises came so late till the ticket sold out. So we watch protege again. Third day night went to watch 'The Lady Iron Chef' was a fun one. Fourth day went out to shop a lil', hmm... not many shopping malls operating. Went to aunt's cake shop, initially want to eat ice cream but nobody's working. o.O" (cousin knows that nobody's working yet make us walk so far) return back home to have our roasted chicken rice. Great! This is how I spent my holiday, though sound bored but I really enjoyed.

2nd brother called at around 5am saying that he's in NUH and he needs an operation. Hell, how am I going to tell parents esp dad when his hell is extremely bad now.

Why must things all happened at the same time?

suffocating

I hope I'll luv myself more

08:19

16 February 2007

Overslept this morning until Doreen sms me. After that she called me and we discovered that both of us just wake up. So in the end we didn't go school. Hm, later gotta meet Yi Wen at JE platform to pass things to her. Argh... gotta travel kinda lazy. Then think after that I'll go to JP and get my manicure done. Was searching for the most trendy type of manicure. Just looking around those courses offered in Ngee Ann and S'pore Poly. It seems like I've totally no idea what I really like or interested in. Aunt was asking me to take up Tourism and Resort Management, I did a research on it realised that it's not that to my liking. Thinking of taking up accounting but is too competitive nowadays. Difficult to climb high and difficult to survive in that company for long. But I want to take a core module with an elective of financial planning. The other course I'd most probably consider 'd be marine engineering. Cuz is extremely lack of manpower. =)

I hope I'll luv myself more

09:43

15 February 2007

Today didn't go to school as she's going out in the afternoon to do her permit so help her to work. Wanna say thanks to Valencia for travelling all the way from school to Jurong just to pass us the revision paper since tomorrow they're all self declaring eve of the eve day. So tomorrow not going to school as well =)

I discovered that my tongue bleed at 3.30am when I was about to sleep and now I woke up with a blood clot around the barbell is taste real sucks. ='( Anyway, m done with cash flow revision paper just some key answer haven't had got the time to figure out the mistakes. Saturday morning 'd be going back to Malaysia and m happy that brother is tagging along with us. I hope sis 'd be going back as well. I just miss playing with my lil' niece

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:31

13 February 2007

This morning get my tongue pierced again and I think this time round was a real painful one as you can feel that the needle is trying to poke through the tongue. After going through, baby put the barbell for me and I went black out for pretty long. Sweat a lot and that frightened baby. But glad that my taste bud still functioning and still able to talk. Hees, I'll never let it close again. After which went to Bedok to meet Valencia to get my cny stuffs from Linda cuz not very certain where her work place exactly located at. Thanks girl. Collected K'neath birthday cake up and Michelle boyfriend drove us to school.

Reached school and we sang him a birthday song think he's kinda of touch, hees. Hm, just got my phone from JP and have got no idea how to use it. =(

Alright shall get my accounts done.

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:39

Mummy broke my Doraemon mug cover, sighs. Yesterday been to work and out of the blue she asked me to work outlet. So piss off, cuz outlet samples also must cut myself and not much samples for customer to try. When many people buying cakes still have to help them take. Sighs... reached home did my accounts revision homework, turn in only at 2am feeling so tiring now. Meeting baby at JP to pierce my tongue then head to her work place to collect my stuffs up. No idea where is her work place located at. Anyway, finally having off day =)

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:08

11 February 2007

Still couldn't find time to visit all poly webby to find our courses that I want. Annie didn't do very well for her O level and she's so moody yesterday. Hopefully today she'd be feeling better. Stupid me to have forgotten that I said I'd ring him up when I board bus so he's mad again. Hell

Tomorrow I'd be carrying lots of stuffs to school. (c",)

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:53

10 February 2007

I think each day 24hours is definitely not enough for me. I'm getting busier with work, especially next week. I was thinking which day to off as I need to collect my shrimp roll from a girl who I met only last afternoon. Cuz she said that she knows the distributor of the shrimp roll and she can get for me at half price. So I've to find time to go to her workplace at Bedok Beauty Salon. As school starts at stupid hours from 2-4pm, I really find it so hard to get everything I want on the same day. In the evening I'm definitely out with my parents to get my handphone. As dad promised to buy me a phone which I seriously don't want but he said it's his wish to buy something I like for me. Now then he realise that I've never ask for anything since a lil' kiddo. Even hp I don't even ask from him is he realise that I like it when I sign up line for him. Anyway, Tuesday morning I'm dying to collect the shrimp roll up from her and head to school. After which, head back home to go vivo city (parents sua gu never been there before).

Another place which I'm dying to go is FEP. Cuz I've been there on Thursday evening and I saw many tops, bottoms and shoes to my liking. Thought of going there to get my cny clothing. Hmm... but I doubt I've the time, argh! Madness** Manicure.. when?

I think I'm so darn regret to have bought the plastic stick barbell @ $9.90 each from 77th street cuz for two that I've bought are being chew by me and it broke. Should buy the steel one instead. Stupid me, now the hole is closed and I've to pierce again on Tuesday (again, packed on Tuesday) and I get baby to buy for me 3 spare barbell at only $7. That's the advantages of getting piercing accessories from queensway when u knows someone working there.

Cheerios! R'fridge is packed with lots of goodies... drinks, beers, chocolate and tibits! CNY asmostphere is here... =) I love brother so much to have get my dinner cum supper for me last night, smooches..

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:20

08 February 2007

Think last night didn't sleep well results that I sprain my back. I thought I would be dead that I couldn't be able to run for my 2.4km. But I did and I passed with pretty good timing and a pad for myself for not stopping for the first 4rounds. I cheated on the sit ups as in I didn't do but reported a false record. My standing board jump for the first time that I jumped till 1.6m but the teacher say that I still fail when the passing was 156cm indicated in the paper. Asked Daphn she said, E is consider fail for board jump. But it was so kind of her to gave me 1.65m a just pass. Skipped our shuttle run cuz we've been waiting for way too long. So we went to Bedok to 've our lunch but didn't eat as I just recalled that mom is getting me lunch after she knock off from work. After that, drop off at TP to collect my cake up.

Reached home, mummy said that she wanna go to old market to get some of her things so accompanied her. After awhile headed back home to get prepared to head to FEP Sakura Cuisine to celebrate his birthday. Was a place which I strongly ppl reading this post to drop by. Food was nice yet budget. =)

Anyway, something real embarrassing happened when I discovered that Cindy Aunt was footing the bill. I walked towards her and told her that it's my interest and sincerity that I want to give dad a treat on his birthday. So she shouldn't be paying the bill. We 'fought' infront of the manager and she was so confused whose card to take, in the end she choose Aunt card and I fall out with her. I went back to my seat I cried unknowingly and many people were watching especially the workers there. I lost my emotion and I left the place. She held my hand and said: "Ok, you pay me back in cash" I do not know why I'm so lost that I shake it off and said "I don't want..." When one lost their emotion, it always remind me of that night she cried outside club Momo looking for me. I finally knew why, there's always a sudden extreme misses for someone. Just like I misses my elder brother so much that I cried in my sick bed. I felt extremely bad what had happened this evening. I'm sorries yet I find it so hard to apologies to her until we reached the interchange. I think she'll never want to come out with me any more. Sighs... why didn't I thought about it that she actually heart pain the lil' money I earn from holiday work? I shouldn't 've acted so implusively. Sob

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:10

07 February 2007

Finally I've got the lil' time to blog before preparing for work. Now here I do not know whether it's a good news or a bad one. I was told that I'm part of 'em to be given the application form to apply for poly. I'm very clear that with my 3.3 gpa is not possible to get into the course that I desire unless I score a 4.0 for this semester. Which I think most likely is possible if I'm careful. So what if in the end that I'm gonna get an average of 3.65? Can my parents afford the school fees there? On the other hand, by the time I graduate I'll be 23 near 24 years old with not much working experience in office, so who's gonna employ me? More over, I really hope to have at least 20k by the age of 25years old to prepare for my future house deposit. And I hope to get settle down by the age of 28. But if I'm going out to work with a ITE cert, how much can I earn per month? How long its gonna take to climb to the highest level of my career path? Which factor should I really consider first?

-Contradicted

Mummy is not at home wondering where she has been to. Hmm, not sure if she is aware that I'm working 5 this evening or not. Nvm. Anyway tomorrow gonna be the last NAPFA that I'm gonna take. Hees, cheerios! After that, think most probably not going for Auditing class, gonna head back home to rest and in the evening gonna have a nice time with parents, and sis family. =) Sunday program had been draft out, hope it's gonna be a memorable one. After this weekend, think gonna be broke. But if everyone gonna be happy, why not? Money can always be earned back. Alright gonna shower and head to work.

Recalled what I've said in the MRT was so true enough and I was glad that I knew it and I understood the reason he left.

I hope I'll luv myself more

15:21

06 February 2007

Think I've been busying working and neglected my sweet lil' bloggies. Alright, schooling and working together indeed tiring especially on days that you ended school late and 've got to rush to work. Was so exhausted that I fallen asleep on Sunday afternoon and only 've my dinner at 9pm, it still taste so delicious! Damn piss off by brother attitude, for what hell yelled at mom when the dinner bought for him is not to his liking. Just ride your bike go elsewhere eat eh? Monday was having rope adventure at 8am, but I reached at 9am and they just get started. Sometimes, I do not know why I've a kind of feeling that, I was being pampered by school kakis. Haha, perhaps they're just a year or few months older than me thats why things they do I felt doted. =) Kakis put up all the safety elements for me before the starts of the adventure rope. I was telling CH not to pull it too tight cuz I v fat and the tights I still want it. Geraldine laughed.

I hope I'll luv myself more

11:20

02 February 2007

Was being woke up at 5.15am and went out of house pretty early this morning. Nothing much in school actually. Class finised at 11am so went to JP to 've lunch with Hau then went to Red2 to try blouse. Nah, she's not tall enough so it looks weird in her. More over, she just got a new haircut. =)

I think this time I die le, cuz I asked dad to get his colleagues to buy NJ Star Communicator. I think he's buying the orginal (asked before around 100+), getting a new handphone for me and he really made up the lost on Sat for me. Hell, I don't wanna take anything from him, cuz he's old. His money is hard earned money. So I pray that everything won't 've any stock left. Hees. Alright gonna revise and rest before work.

I hope I'll luv myself more

14:26

01 February 2007

I thought he changed but he's still the same. Why was he always so mad when I didn't answer his call cuz I didn't hear it? I don't do it deliberately and he always failed to listen in. Whats wrong 've I done? He told me himself that the auntie of the patient opposite of him praised me that I'm a very good daughter when granny and mom visited him the other day. She even wants me to be her god daughter. She said she has never see a daughter who talked to her dad so intimately before. Even all uncles and aunties of mine dote me a lot, but why can't he treat me nicer? Is not that I self praise myself, though my temper is bad but overall where have a teenager who always love to stay at home to play computer and revise her school work during weekend? Sometimes even friend asked me out I don't even feel like going out. And why must you pick on me when I'm stayed at home to rest when there's no school and work? When I went out with friends you always thought I went out with guys. But so what if it's a guy? Can't he be my friend as well?

Can someone just tell me what 've I done wrong?

enoemos sessim

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16:32